This is me, plain and simple.

Man so livejournal has hit the dead scene. I don't know anyone who uses their livejournal anymore. I was talking to a friend about it earlier which made me curious. I couldn't even remember what mine looked like so I came to check up on it.

Myspace and Facebook have taken over everything.

Charlie broke up with me a week ago. I'm pretty much over the broken relationship but i'm not over him. I don't miss being in a relationship with him i just miss him sometimes. And everything makes me think of him. Like I turn around and something makes me go "aww charlie"


Grawr.

Wes comes home in 45 days. I'm super excited

I love how i'm teetering between missing Charlie and wanting to be with Wes.

That's prob bad.

*yawn*

Ok so no one uses livejournal anymore and hardly anyone reads this but i enjoy having my livejournal to write in every now and then.

Annnyywwaaay

I have this AMAZING boyfriend. Charlie. He's great! I'm so happy that we're together. He's the most amazing guy i've ever been with.

And super romantic.

*sneeze*

Bye!

I had a crazy night/morning.


So much happened and it was so much fun!

Tonight should be more calm but i'm sure it'll be just as fun.


Oh so this whole Josh thing is getting way complicated. I'm going on a date with another guy sometime soon. I need it. Josh is so frustrating.



I love my friends!


Anyway...yeah. just thought i'd leave a quick update

I think we'll be able to last for a long time. That makes me amazingly happy.

We've had our little tiffs already but it'll work out. They're things i need to adjust to and get used to. Things I wish I could change but I can't.

Now it's just convincing him that i'm ok.

He's so cute.

Ok so I just had one of the best nights of my life. Here's the play by play.

Went to see Vanessa Brown for her 18th birthday and that was totally awesome because I haven't seen her in ages! She's doing amazingly awesome. Her cake gave me a major sugar high though.

Then I picked up Justin and we went to the hookah bar where we met up with Ifte, Josh, Kyle, Donavon, and Matt Bean. Then we changed tables and Kim Torres showed up. Then Justin and I left to get Katie and got Jaclyn in the process. Then we went back to the hookah bar where we found that we'd been joined by Jon Howard (i know how crazy is that!), Evan something(i know him i just don't know his last name), and some other guy idk his name. Then Jon Jackson showed up and we all had tons of fun. Oh Cory Emerson had finally showed up too.

Then instead of us all splitting up we ALL went to Will Walker's house and had TONS of fun. Then Jaclyn, Katie, Cory, Justin, Josh, Jon, and I all proceeded to Ihop to meet up with some more people and we ended up having a shit ton of ppl. Tons of fun and group pictures.

OMG TONS OF PICTURES.

Anyway after Ihop Katie, Josh, and I went to Katie's house. We stayed up and watched the end of Sin City and then Katie went to bed and then Josh and I finally went to sleep but ended up waking up like 3 hours later. Then around 10:30 we went to common grounds because he goes there every sunday so we went and had breakfast and then we went home.

Josh is amazing! just so you know ;-) hehe

Totally cute with a tongue piercing and an eyebrow piercing and a tattoo oh so cute!
Great kisser!

Anyway yeah.

Merry christmas eve everyone!!!!!

Plain White T's- Hate (I really don't like you)

Love love love love love love
Woo!

You were everything I wanted
You were everything a girl could be
Then you left me brokenhearted
Now you don't mean a thing to me
All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love

Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
Brought you around
And you just brought me down
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you

I really don't like you

Thought that everything was perfect
(Perfect)
Isn't that how it's supposed to be?
Thought you thought that I was worth it
Now I think a little differently
All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love

Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
(I really don't like you)
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
(Liked about you)
Brought you around
And you just brought me down
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you

Now that it's over you can't hurt me
Now that it's over you can't bring me down

Oh... oh... oh... oh oh oh
Oh... oh... oh... oh oh oh

All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love

Hey!

Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
(I really don't like you)
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
(Liked about you)
Brought you around
And you just brought me down
(Hey!)
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you

Oh... oh... oh... oh oh oh
I really don't like you
Oh... oh... oh... oh oh oh
I really don't like you
Oh... oh... oh... oh oh oh
I really don't like you
Oh... oh... oh... oh oh oh

I got into the UofA. I didn't apply anywhere else.

My major: Accounting.
My Minor (maybe): Spanish and Photography. Or just spanish idk. I don't even know if i'll do a minor but i want to do a spanish minor badly.

*yawn*

Last final today!

I leave january 9th for baltimore, maryland for my surgery. My surgery's on January 11th. I'll be in baltimore for 2 weeks and then at home for 2 more.

Step 1 - Put your iTunes/other music player or iPod/MP3 player on shuffle
Step 2 - Post the first line or two (that aren't a dead giveaway) from the first 20 songs that play, no matter what they are. If you're listening to High School Musical and you're ashamed, that's your fault, not mine.
Step 3 - Post the lines and have all of the songs with their artists at the bottom.
Step 4 - Cross out the song when somebody gets it right. No cheating. You Googlers are not good sports.

1. "It's cold out this morning it's raining it's pouring my back's acting up but so what i'm alive and i'm breathing. My baby's still mad from that fight that we had but her stomping around in the kitchen sure beats her leavin."

2."The glove compartment isn't accurately named and everybody knows it so i'm proprosing a swift orderly change. Cause behind its door there's nothing to keep my fingers warm and all i find are souvenirs from better times before the gleam of your taillights fading east to find yourself a better life."

3. "Don't know what you've really got it's hard to stay and not pretend can't make sense in what you thought seems I can't comprehend. I'm happy to be, only all that you see and i'm not one to learn to be the same."

4. "Honestly, with the things i've seen it seems as though we fly. Stories go, stories leave they imprint on my mind. Be honest, we'll be afraid. falling, over again."

5."Here am I yet another goodbye! He says Adios, says Adios, and do you know why she won't break down and cry? She says Adios, says Adios, Goodbye."

6. "Ice-age heat wave, can't complain. If the world's at large, why should I remain? Walked away to another plan."

7. "Bring the violence it's significant to the life if you've ever known anyone. Bring the violence it's significant to the life. Can you feel it?"

8. "You have a chance to really shine now. Well patience never was one of your true virtues. Stop trying to control everything and fuck what they say, what do you have to prove?"

9. "I'm just fine, but in time, this sunshine will surely fade into the moonlight. I'll adapt without a map, feeling trapped, only seeing what my headlights. But if I share this skin I'm living in and know I can't go alone."

10. "Every time I turn my back I get the feeling that I'm 'bout to take a shot to the skully with a bat. I'm out of control, need you to fill my soul up and could you shed a little light on the skeletons holed up."

11. "(yeah, sing a song bro...) If the sun refused to shine I dont mind, I dont mind. (yeah) If the mountains ah, fell in the sea Let it be, it aint me." 
Jimi Hendrix- If 6 was 9

12. "Don't call me a zero I'm gonna be a hero Like Phil Esposito or the Kennedys. I'll be incorporated and I'll be imitated and overrated, but that doesn't bother me."

13. "Empy cup that's always full. Empty soul to cleanse my world. I've been waiting all my life for an empty cause to force my pride."

14. "When I wake in the morning I want to blow into pieces. I want more than just okay, more than just okay."

15. "Destiny... destiny protect me from the world. Destiny... hold my hand, protect me from the world. Here we are, with our running and confusion and I don't see no confusion anywhere."

16. "Do not waste this evening Baby I'm begging you. Your big imagination's laying it's tricks on you. If you think my up and leaving's something I'm gonna do feel my chest when I look at you."

17. "Why no one will help me I am too dumb I am too smart. They'll not understand me. I am lonely They'll hate me And there is not enough time It's too hard to help me And god wants me to work No resting no lazy"

18. "Good morning Worm your honour the crowd will plainly show the prisoner who now stands before you was caught red handed showing feelings. Showing feelings of an almost human nature."

19. "She's never pulled anyone from a burning building. She's never rocked Central Park to a half a million fans, screaming out her name. She's never hit a shot to win the game."

20. "If I could I would do all of this again. Travel back in time with you to where this all began. We could hide inside ourselves and leave the world behind and make believe there's something left to find."

Smile Empty Soul-Rain
Modest Mouse- The World At Large
Daily Planet- Flying Blind
Switchfoot- More Than Fine
Death Cab for Cutie- Title and Registration
Alanis Morissette- Excuses
Yellowcard- miles apart
Barenaked Ladies- Celebrity
Jamie O'Neal- Somebody's Hero
Radiohead- Anyone can play guitar
John Mayer- Only Heart
Pink Floyd- The Trial
Trapt- When all is said and done
Darryl Worley-Better than I deserve
Rufio-White Lights
Jimi Hendrix- If 6 was 9
Disturbed- Violence Fetish
Tobymac- Yours
Sum 41- Crazy Amanda Bunkface
One by One- Enya

New awesome layout!!!

'tis the season to be jolly!

Umm....Happy thanksgiving break!

This weekend's been weird.

Thursday and Friday I got to go to Conway and visit UCA and Hendrix. Also I got to hang out with Nathan and meet some of his friends (all of which are cool). I had tons of fun and Hendrix is definately my top choice now. I have to work really hard to be able to get in but I think I'll be ok. We can't afford it so if I don't get enough scholarships and loans then i'll have to go to the UofA or Nwacc.

I didn't get to see Jed or Tess while i was down there but hopefully i'll get to see them next time I go down.

This has been said so many times that i'm not sure if matters. But we never stood a chance and i'm not sure if it matters!

I was going through my notes on facebook and got to one with the entry title:

Without trust and understanding friendships would be void.

Happy Friday the 13th!

Eeeehhh so i'm not going to work tonight. This job sucks ass and I really don't want it. I also won't be able to work soon because of my surgery. Apparently that's happening at like the end of this month or the beginning of next. Won't be long. Ick.

I'll be out for like 6 weeks after my surgery.
I have to have a 16cm long incision.
Lovely.

Soo i'm sitting at Jace's. Jace is sleeping. He didn't go to bed last night because he wanted to make sure he was able to get to gamestop at 7am and reserve a Nintendo Wii.
I picked jaclyn up from work and took her home.
I might go to dinner with Krista and her friends later but i'm not sure.
Jaclyn and I are supposed to hang out after she takes a shower and stuff.
I hope Jace doesn't sleep until tomorrow afternoon. I think i'd be pretty danged upset.
Stacey's hanging out with her ex-boyfriend, will, tonight.

*huge yawn*

I haven't updated this thing in awhile. *shrug*

I don't have a lot to say.

Sooo i'm sitting here at jace's on his computer while he's cleaning his room.

Jaclyn apparently is off with Jonathan somewhere which is cool.
Stacey's at the hinder concert.
Landon's at his apartment after being here for an hour or so.
Chad's who knows where.

I just got a call from Stacey so I could hear the song i wanted to hear but I definately can't hear anything but crackling and i'm catching words every now and then for like a second.
That sucks.

Guess what. Wes left today! and Krista said she won't be hanging around anymore though she called Jace today. He didn't answer.

*yawn* I was afraid I might have to write an essay tonight but i don't. Rock!

I don't have a lot to say.

This past weekend I went camping and it was awesome! went with jaclyn, jace, danny, jonathan, and stacey. we had loads of fun and we're definately doing it again and with more people.

its really good to hear your voice saying my name it sounds so sweet comin from the lips of an angel hearing those words it makes me weak

Bobby got in a huge fight with his mom over his math credit. He's officially ungrounded but his relationship with his mom is damaged. His horoscope that day said don't do anything eccentric or over the top. Unfortunately he didn't hear his horoscope until after it happened from me.

Last night was mediocre. I finally got to see Jaclyn after like days of not seeing her.

It really sucks to sit around and listen to a guy you like go on and on about how amazing and gorgeous your BEST FRIENDS are and how gorgeous and amazing other girls are. Then all you get is a "you're very pretty" and a "i'm really sorry for what i did i wish i'd dated you" then nothing happens.

"I've given up on love. Hah watch in a couple of days i'll meet a gorgeous girl and be like i love you" -him

I'm not gorgeous or amazing enough which is apparent because i've been around for 3 years and the most I got was for him to mess around with me while he was high as fuck.

He's actually really shallow but at the same time so amazing. Honestly I think i'd rather be with Islen or Jared than him. Sometimes I don't know.

I still need to find Ashwa and talk to him. I still need to go to Steak 'n shake and talk to Ramsey. I asked my friends to go with me after we got jaclyn and they said yes but then we got jaclyn and it was istantly to Jonathan's. Go figure.

jonathan made a fire last night because he went "camping" in his backyard hah. no it was cute he had the tent all set up and chairs around the fire. it's not something you see everyday when you're within 20 feet of a house.

my coffee's too strong. I need to add some stuff to it.

i'm not in a superb mood. if it keeps raining all day i'm going to be pissed beyond belief because i need to take pics. I'm so sick of listening to mr. teague bitch at me. I'm trying really hard. My friends aren't.

*sigh* i'm in an all together bad mood.

I'm sick of everyone having a boyfriend or girlfriend. I'm sick of Krista and Wes. I'm sick of everything.

I found out why one of my friends just flat out stopped talking to me. He thinks I like him. Which I definately don't. W/e. He came from that not so wonderful house anyway.

I dont' have to go to school on friday because i'm having more tests done. whoopde fucking do.

The thought of getting surgery scares the crap out of me.

i'm going to stop typing because my left fingers are hurting for some reason.

This was a very crazy weekend. Naked boys and girls. Boob and testicle flashings. Lots of alcohol. The sleeping of 4 people in one bed(poor Austin, sorry!). The piling of everyone on Austin's bed which resulted in dry humping and a lot of inappropriate touching by accident. "Wes's hand is on my crotch get it off get it off!!"-me

Saturday was much less crazy but fun. I kept falling asleep though.

So I just found out that I have to have surgery. And apparently it's considered major surgery. *sigh*

Oh also apparently i'm not allowed to to go to Barb's house ever again. I was apparently told this as well was Stacey though neither of us were told that. Stacey was actually told by King that she was welcome there anytime, but w/e.

Last night was crazy. And i mean crraazzy. I'm going to make a friends only entry later with some pics.

Ultrasounds and catscans suck.

IV's suck. aka needles suck.

hospitals are too cold.